Progress Report ID-14440 by clean_dreams
Mari O, 21 years old female, weighing 60 kg / 132 lbs, 65 in /165.1 cm tall, Spiritual. From Dublin, Ireland IE
Doing 12 days of Water Fasting. Starting February 2, 2012
Reasons for Fasting:
Although weight loss is a huge plus for me, I'm using it as a self healing tool. I've struggled with disordered eating, and thinking for about a year, and a half now. Fasting is about the only thing that has helped me feel in control, and given me a positive self image, and outlook. I've refused to go to a doctor, or therapist..I want to take care of my issues on my own, water fasting really has helped. Though I feel myself slipping back since christmas. So I'm going to snap myself back in line. It's just starting that I've been struggling with, so I'd really like some support.
Past Fasting Experience:
Previous short 1-5 day fasts. A 19 day master cleanse, and a 10 day fast. I had attempted 10 day fasts before, and always quit the first few days, so then I tried the master cleanse. I lost 21lbs, and felt great, but the first day off I ate everything in site. I did that for 3 months, and gained all the weight back. After those three months I finally finished a 10 day fast. I was miserable, and on edge the entire time. Though when I was finished I wanted healthy things, I was in control of all my senses, and so happy. It was more than worth it. I lost 14 pounds, and kept it off, also lost another 3 pounds. When christmas came around though, I told myself I could let go of control for christmas weekend. I havn't regained control since. Every day since christmas I've been trying to start a fast. I've gained 5 pounds, some days I lose 2-3 lbs but i'm basically steady at a 5 pound gain.
Restriction, and binging.
State of Mind:
Trying to hold myself together, and not let my husband know that I'm falling apart again.