Some of us are born different.
And the difference can be both a burden and
blessing. I was born a risk-taker. I wanted to try
it all. I peddled across Canada on an old bike,
camping at the side of the road. I tried bungee
jumping, and lived in a nudist colony on a
tropical island. As a teen I was free spirited,
but not free. At sixteen years of age,
disillusioned and hurt, I began the dangerous
journey of exploring psychedelic drugs. A bad
L.S.D. trip resulted in constant, excruciating
headaches. To deal with the pain, I started to use
painkillers, tranquilizers, cannabis and alcohol.
Five hazy years of my life were devoted to
escaping pain through drugs.
I become more reckless in my
drug use. With callous disregard for my life, I
injected a syringe full of P.C.P. It was a
dangerous dose. This injection severely damaged my
kidneys, increasing my pain level. Anger and
self-hatred turned to hardened resentment. I hated
the world, but I had no one to blame but me.
In my dismal existence my
short-term memory was nonexistent, my skin was a
sickly yellow. I was constantly tired. My kidneys
burned with pain, my leg muscles would spasm and
ache while standing. As my job required working on
ladders for long hours, I lost my job!
Finally, with no other way out,
I got down on my knees in prayer and surrendered
my life to God. The song of angels was heard in my
heart. I would never be the same. A son had
discovered his true Father. Everything changed. I
had a burning fire inside. I had purpose, meaning
and connection for the first time. I started a new
exploration of the spiritual world. Joining a
Christian youth group, I made new friends who did
not use drugs and supported me through my
recovery. I used my experience to help others not
go down the same path. I spoke before thousands of
students in high schools about the dangers of drug
abuse. Many made commitments to stop using drugs.
Life now had meaning and
purpose, but my body and soul was still damaged. I
was still sick.
One day I discovered a book
describing how a dying man had returned to health.
Not only had he overcome a fatal illness through a
strict vegetarian diet and fasting, his new found
health surpassed the vitality of his youth. For
me, the message shouted out "hope!" I fasted on
juices made from carrot, cucumber, watermelon, and
cantaloupe. After several short fasts, I felt
better physically and mentally. These juice fasts,
three to seven days each, gave me the ability to
work, but I was still tiredstanding on ladders
caused intense pain in my legs.
A thirty-day juice fast was the
turning point in my life. The first few days were
difficult, but as I continued I felt much better.
At the twentieth day of the fast, I started
working fourteen hours a day at hard physical
labor in the hottest summer weather. I climbed the
ladders with ease. My energy level drastically
There were other improvements
as the fast went on. I needed less sleep, my mind
cleared, and my memory was now functioning. Leg
muscles returned to health, and back pain lessened
due to the healing of my kidneys, leaving me a
virile young man.
Life changed! Instead of
suffering, it became a joyous experience. The
healing came like water to a parched,
drought-stricken heart. The thirty days of fasting
on juice was a miracle that changed my life.
I started to write to help
friends who had health problems. Although I could
not spell or type, and had almost no writing
skills, a burning passion kept me going. I wrote
for three years, and yet the writing was missing
Christ. It became like emptiness inside. Then the
Lord called me to go north and spend time alone in
The campground was empty; it
was too late in the fall for camping. In the back
of the truck I was trying to keep warm with a
small heater. My heart was agonizing over
splitting up with a woman I deeply loved.
Three days had gone by, I was
weak, cold, and distraught. Still, there was no
answer from God. I decided to go for a drive
around the lake. It was on this drive that I met
the people whom the Lord had sent. Their words
rekindled my vision, my hope renewed. The answer